Happy 2014

2014 is rolling along under full steam now, promising to be a really interesting year. Why? Well I've been cross-dressing up a storm. I now own the same amount of heels as I do regular shoes. So manning up is not going well, but I've been considering if that's such a bad thing or not. To help my contemplation I've written a manifesto, part of which I want to share with you today, as I embark on a year of personal introspection.

Love the Lord your God...

Everything we do should glorify God. I want to live my life glorifying Him. Does cross-dressing form part of that? It's something I've been wondering about since I became a Christian. This is the first and most important point of my manifesto.

Love your neighbour...

We should never hurt others, showing only love. Specifically, I don't want my cross-dressing to hurt my wife, family, friends or you, my readers. This is the second most important point of my manifesto.

...As you love yourself

I have low self esteem, but want to love myself the way God loves me. I want to be happy with who I am, and this is where I think cross-dressing plays a part. I don't want to be a woman, just a man who can enjoy beauty. I don't want to dress like a slut, a girl or have a sex change or breasts or any of that, but I do think I should be able to enjoy dressing up and that it might be a vital part of who I am. My focus this year is to contemplate that.

Porn clouds the mind

I want to eradicate porn from my life, because I need to approach cross-dressing with an untainted mind. This will also make it easier for my wife and I to grow together and to talk about cross-dressing.

That's just some of what I'm thinking about, and I'd love to share the journey here. Leave a comment and let me know you're listening.

I, Idol

Why is it that so many of us keep slipping back into our old ways? I'm sure it's because we dwell on the idea of cross-dressing. It is our idol. Effectively, we're worshipping ourselves. You don't need to agree with me, but you do need to ask two questions:

1. Who am I glorifying when I cross-dress? Is it women, God or myself? Something else? Sex? Love?

2. What good does it do me to keep my mind on cross-dressing?

In regards to point two above, I think there is value in considering cross-dressing, but after a point it easily becomes a kind of self-destructive meditation. Fill your mind with good things, meditate on the Bible and, if your problem persists, call me in the morning.